I am currently in the process of offloading a small business that is simultaneously my dream job and my worst nightmare. Without going into the details of what job that is, it seems that although I love the job itself, it is not how I want to contribute to the world, as I have recently realised.
“They” say, the grass is always greener on the other side. But still, people go to those grasslands. People still flock there like a herd of sheep. However, we are following an invisible shepherd called “perception”.
I don’t know how we form our perception of greener pastures, but it was definitely formed subconsciously. It could be from movies. It could be from friends. It could be from parents. It could be from lovers. Whichever way it was formed, it seems like it wasn’t formed from within ourselves.
I know this now because I found out this about myself. I love my job. I love what I’m doing, but it doesn’t satisfy a bigger part of me. It doesn’t satisfy the part of me where I could be more. I found a cushy job but a cushy job does not promote growth. I thought no growth was good. I thought if sustainability is achieved, it’s a great feat. But this is what I found out about growth vs sustainability.
sustainability = growth
Growing is key to sustainability. If you don’t grow, you will be removed from the world, and more importantly, you will be removed from yourself.
You don’t have to grow at other people’s pace. You don’t have to grow at other people’s direction. BUT, you have to grow. Whichever direction you chose for yourself, you have to grow in that direction. It is the only way you are true to yourself.
But what’s the point of growing if we are only a blip in this world? What’s the point when we are only living in this world for a very short time?
Rather than answering that question, I would say, this question makes it more important that we choose our direction to grow wisely. It makes it more important that we focus our efforts. Rather than choosing what you think you might love, you’ll have to choose what you will really make you fall in love, head over heels.
As I seek closure to this chapter of my life, I’m looking forward to a new chapter. Stay tuned! 
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