I don’t use to write. I don’t use to read either. I watch TV. I watch plenty of TV. If someone wants to know what’s on, they come to me. I don’t need the TV guide. I am the TV guide. I am also guided by TV. My plans were made around the TV schedule. If spiderman was on, I will make sure I am at home at that time. Playing with friends can come later. This was at a time when the VCR was not popular. This was when there were only 3 channels to choose from.
Fast forward to the more recent me, I still watch TV. It has become a sedative drug for me. Stress? Watch TV. Overworked? Watch TV. Want to relax? Watch TV. Anything but write. The only reason I need to write is for work. Sometimes, I write for exams, but most of the time, it is for work. Emails, reports, presentations, newsletters etc.
So what made me write for myself? What gave birth to the writer in me?
I took a journey. And I am the only one qualified for this journey. I took a journey within.
It came to a point when there were too many things going on in life. Relationship, work, play, families, friends… At a not so eventful day, I sat down, and I wrote.
I wrote whatever that came to my mind. I wrote how I was feeling at that time. I wrote about how holding a pen felt. I wrote about how writing aimlessly felt. I slowly moved on to the events of the day. I wrote about who pissed me off that day. I wrote about the dinner I had that night. I wrote about “how I wish I have more money”. That led me to write about the things that I want to do. I wrote about the things that I want to buy, the things that I want to own. I just wrote, and I kept on writing into the night.
I went to bed only when I was too tired to write. It was a peaceful sleep. It seemed I have untied the knots in my head and the knots just unrolled themselves into thin air.
The next morning, I felt refreshed. I haven’t felt refreshed for a long time. There seem to be more energy in me. I went to work with a lighter heart and I was more productive than ever. I believe I have awaken the dormant writer in me.
I noticed that when I write, I write about myself. I write about my relationship with the events around me. I write about my relationship with the people around me. I write about how I connect with the environment around me. The important thing here, is I learn more about me when I write.
This journey within myself took me by surprise, and yet it felt natural. There is a writer in me, and all it took, was one journey. That fateful journey opened my eyes to the world of writing.
Writing is not about words. Writing is not about grammar. Writing is about a relationship. It is about the relationship between you and the world. To put down in words is to solidify that relationship.
Take the journey within. I look forward to meet the writer in you.
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